Well since i cant sleep i suppose i will update you all now! Sleep has not been my friend for the last few weeks and i am growing a bit weary from lack of, but nothing i can do about it now! :~)
My last few days were actually quite stress free for me...I arrived at the clinic midday on Friday, they checked me into my suite (which was basically a 2 star kitchenette, but here in India very nice for a hospital room!) I got settled in and then had to report to the 3rd floor at 3, i had been told that my IVF would be at 4 for basically i sat in a room for over an hour! I believe they had 3 implantation's that night and all of us were gathered together in the room. The other women were surrounded by family and i must admit i was a bit jealous, but it made no difference as Ryan would not be allowed in the surgical room anyways! At 4 they took me back and prepped me, and i must say i was impressed with their op sterilization standards. They brought me into the room just after they wheeled the other woman out, and we both exchanged that terrified look (LOL). The op room was right next to the cryo chamber so that the embryos stayed there until just the moment they were ready to implant. My Dr came in and told me that she had just looked at them and that they were perfect and asked if she could implant them all since Ryan and i had expressed wanting twins, and i said yes (there was no way I was going to let them not give me all of my embryos)...Its funny, because i was so very nervous, but as they worked on getting me ready they told me that now most important was that i relaxed and although i was in a strange place with 5 women in a room with me speaking Hindi, I prayed that God be with me to bring me comfort and courage and INSTANTLY a wave of calm washed over me! I have never experienced anything like that before...I was Calm while going through the biggest thing in my life. The procedure took maybe 5 minutes and although it was uncomfortable it was definitely bearable and TOTALLY worth it....So at 4:25 (there was a clock on the wall) my 6 little embryos were implanted! The took me up to my room immediately following and i was instructed to lay flat for the next 2 hours! It was the longest 2 hours of my life, but just for good measure i didn't get up for 3, funny how something as simple as being upright can become scary, all i could think of was y little embryos being pulled away by gravity! I must admit that to pass some of the time that i did talk to them, yes i know, but when you are in a room alone flat on your back for 2 hours and there is no one to talk to, well embryos will do just fine for company!
They took excellent care of me and i was watched over by a beautiful girl named Jennifer who worked there. She came up and sat with me a few times a day and even stopped by after her shift to see how i was. It was awesome to have her there, because i must admit being on bed rest alone is no fun, but i had her and the Gilmore Girls (thanks Sarah) to keep me company! I also have to say that God really does provide everything you could need, he gave me calm, he gave me company (might i add that she is the first Catholic Indian i have met, out of all the Hindus and Muslims God gave me Christian company) and he provided all that i needed for my time there that i was worried about! Our roommates were so very sweet and came to visit me Saturday night and brought me food and snacks! It was awesome of them and it really made my night! Ryan got to the hospital early Sunday morning and it was such a relief that he could be there with me, then i didn't have to talk to the belly alone hehe.
All in all an amazing experience! I continue my lovely shots every day for the next month and although it appears i will not have to also take estrogen shots at least not yet, so my poor rear may recover someday...I tell you what, i never knew butt muscles could be so sore from doing nothing at all! My pregnancy test is on the 5th of August so i will let you know as soon as i know, but i still stand firm in what i feel God telling me, I AM PREGNANT!
Thank you for your love and continued prayers, you were all with me this weekend! I don't know what i am feeling right now, honestly some minutes i am so happy that i start crying and others i feel like nothing has changed and i think a little wall of protection goes up around my heart...My emotions are all over the place, but after the 5th everything will be certain and i think that will make it easier for me!
My last few days were actually quite stress free for me...I arrived at the clinic midday on Friday, they checked me into my suite (which was basically a 2 star kitchenette, but here in India very nice for a hospital room!) I got settled in and then had to report to the 3rd floor at 3, i had been told that my IVF would be at 4 for basically i sat in a room for over an hour! I believe they had 3 implantation's that night and all of us were gathered together in the room. The other women were surrounded by family and i must admit i was a bit jealous, but it made no difference as Ryan would not be allowed in the surgical room anyways! At 4 they took me back and prepped me, and i must say i was impressed with their op sterilization standards. They brought me into the room just after they wheeled the other woman out, and we both exchanged that terrified look (LOL). The op room was right next to the cryo chamber so that the embryos stayed there until just the moment they were ready to implant. My Dr came in and told me that she had just looked at them and that they were perfect and asked if she could implant them all since Ryan and i had expressed wanting twins, and i said yes (there was no way I was going to let them not give me all of my embryos)...Its funny, because i was so very nervous, but as they worked on getting me ready they told me that now most important was that i relaxed and although i was in a strange place with 5 women in a room with me speaking Hindi, I prayed that God be with me to bring me comfort and courage and INSTANTLY a wave of calm washed over me! I have never experienced anything like that before...I was Calm while going through the biggest thing in my life. The procedure took maybe 5 minutes and although it was uncomfortable it was definitely bearable and TOTALLY worth it....So at 4:25 (there was a clock on the wall) my 6 little embryos were implanted! The took me up to my room immediately following and i was instructed to lay flat for the next 2 hours! It was the longest 2 hours of my life, but just for good measure i didn't get up for 3, funny how something as simple as being upright can become scary, all i could think of was y little embryos being pulled away by gravity! I must admit that to pass some of the time that i did talk to them, yes i know, but when you are in a room alone flat on your back for 2 hours and there is no one to talk to, well embryos will do just fine for company!
They took excellent care of me and i was watched over by a beautiful girl named Jennifer who worked there. She came up and sat with me a few times a day and even stopped by after her shift to see how i was. It was awesome to have her there, because i must admit being on bed rest alone is no fun, but i had her and the Gilmore Girls (thanks Sarah) to keep me company! I also have to say that God really does provide everything you could need, he gave me calm, he gave me company (might i add that she is the first Catholic Indian i have met, out of all the Hindus and Muslims God gave me Christian company) and he provided all that i needed for my time there that i was worried about! Our roommates were so very sweet and came to visit me Saturday night and brought me food and snacks! It was awesome of them and it really made my night! Ryan got to the hospital early Sunday morning and it was such a relief that he could be there with me, then i didn't have to talk to the belly alone hehe.
All in all an amazing experience! I continue my lovely shots every day for the next month and although it appears i will not have to also take estrogen shots at least not yet, so my poor rear may recover someday...I tell you what, i never knew butt muscles could be so sore from doing nothing at all! My pregnancy test is on the 5th of August so i will let you know as soon as i know, but i still stand firm in what i feel God telling me, I AM PREGNANT!
Thank you for your love and continued prayers, you were all with me this weekend! I don't know what i am feeling right now, honestly some minutes i am so happy that i start crying and others i feel like nothing has changed and i think a little wall of protection goes up around my heart...My emotions are all over the place, but after the 5th everything will be certain and i think that will make it easier for me!
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Just amazing!! Please, please back up these posts! Imagine how wonderful it will be to come back years from now and read these words. Or read them to your children! ;)
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