Transformed

I have had a lot of time for soul searching over these last few months, and i have come to many realizations. Today i was looking at a friends FB page and i found a recent picture of Kira. I cant stop crying now....

Becca and Kira have been the biggest part of our little world here in India for a very long time. Our girls really have grown up together, and we have been together for most all of the amazing milestones. Kira and Becca have been back in the US for over 2 months now and wont be back for another month and it has been the hardest time in my journey of India. I knew i would miss them, but i had no idea how deep my love had grown for them, not as passing acquaintances but as family. Here in India, Justin, Becca and Kira are our family. Being without them for so long is just as hard as missing the rest of our family and friends that are back in the US.

For the first time here in India i felt as though all of the pillars i leaned on were thousands of miles away, and so i turned all of my focus onto my foundation....My God, my husband and our child. This time brought me to new leaps in faith, into a new calling from my heavenly father. Taught me to be strong when i feel my weakest. I learned to reach out of my little shelter and seek companionship from others, to step out of my comfort zone and make new friends. Ultimately this time was used to give me new strength to prepare me for our final goodbye to our very dear friends when the time comes. I don't even want to think about India without them, it will not be the same India that i have found a home in.

Living this expat life means that people come and go, you make some new passing friends and others last a lifetime. Our daughters shared an amazing time in their life together and i have no doubt that Becca and i will find a way to keep these girls, and ourselves in touch. I honestly cant imagine my life without them in it. So as i have held tightly to my very vital friendship with the King's so will i cling to this friendship with the Lloyds. Friendships are not dime a dozen, but a rare precious gem, that when found must be kept for all time! Yet another lesson i have learned well in my time here in India!

India, with each passing day is less and less about a job and more and more about God having my full attention and a chance for me to be transformed in ways i never imagined. I came to India a lost caterpillar, as of now i sit growing and changing in my cocoon, and one great day i will emerge a butterfly and my wings will finally carry me home......