Ho-hum

So I don't know what my problem is, maybe it is that i am missing my friends and family back home more than usual because there is so much going on back home where i feel i could be there for them, my friends deployment, my Mom's health, the list goes on and on. Maybe it is that the Lloyds are back in the US and so i am truly ALONE over here especially since Ryan is gone for a week doing back to back overnights. Maybe it is that my little monster has been having a heck of a time teething (she is going for a record, cutting 3 at once). Or, maybe it is just that my life is on track so satan is attacking. Who knows!!!!

I am not going to sit here and feel sorry for myself, there are much bigger things going on than my blue mood and i have so much to be thankful for i hardly feel the right to feel down. I am fortunate to have my husband home most nights, something my friends with deployed husbands can not have right now, so i should not complain. We moved half way around the world so that we could have a "normal" marriage not one where my husband was gone weeks at a time and always sleeping elsewhere. India is not the easiest place to live and when my only friend over here is gone it can be a bit much. It is worth it to see Ryan so much more than we would if we were back in the US and he were working for a major airline. That is a future we may have to face again sooner rather than later and i am terrified of that! I actually find myself praying that our time over here go slow because i know when we go back home i will become an "aviation widow" again and i don't even want to think about that!